just some trip photos. Riley and my brown hair dye rileys hair is almost all washed out but loved the trip and I never take any pics. and one of masen being funny as usual.

alex took some great pictures these are just a couple the rest are on facebook. Im excited to leave in two weeks for utah hope all is well. love em

ok he was supposed to wear this suit to our dance but no he wore his work clothes but it was very fun he makes me laugh.

going dancing with alex. I have two left feet and he promises to let me step on his latin booties and keep me up. He can dance.

handsome man at the ranch

sorry bad lighting which makes our wall look bright yellow but just got new camera and wanted to try out lots of love.

got a new camera thanks to alex my love and a new box of hair color what do you think I think I am addicted brown is definitely in. Garen is still in his oral stage trying to bite me but not as much we just finally ordered his hearing brain whatever therapy for his magnified hearing to stimulate proper function. I dont know really what Im talking about until I see it happen. We closed the house in utah and now we only own one house and one mortgage yaaaaa!! Lately really low with illness and feeling ugly so i colored hair to get me out of pjs and make up can sometimes help. I think I need to fit the make up in more often so I dont feel so well old.

ok well it took some playing around but i figured how to get my phone pictures on google. Sprint makes it so hard they will let you send them to facebook but not download them to your computer only order from them so I hope I am not stealing so these are doubles from facebook. Now that I have sorta of a camera I will try to take more pics to send to blog. Right now I have a sore throat either from yelling or from being sick. I am going to work at the temple tonight with alex from 9-12 at night fun date So hopefully I can get better. Lately I have been having a really hard time. I am going to the temple once a week to help me stop yelling and be a better mom. I feel like I am being walked all over. I read my baby book my mom wrote of how sweet I was and it makes me sad because where did I go. I come home and only some of my kids a very small amount completely ignore and yell at me. I feel like I need to love this individual more but the more I give I feel like this person walks all over me then I turn mean and I hate who I am when I get so upset. it breaks my heart.

happy b-day bevan the kids went to another girls bday and they had a petting zoo and I thought of you plus I broke our camera so this is the last of the digital pics until I talk myself into buying another. And I am so cheap so who knows when that will be. Just to say a little about my big bro. He was the best example of first born. Which was keeping is little sister(Me) thoroughly entertained he made me so happy. He still makes me laugh until I cry and he is a great hubby and daddy. I tell my boys especially Riley always about bevan and what he did for us. His unselfish attitude towards everything. And his joy in life and always helping us have fun with anything.

just a moment of the years to come AUGGHHHH!!! but they do look cute but no make up till thirty

Kalen's Baptism: Well one beautiful day we arrived right on time filled the tub and waited for the guests. When who would appear but Garen and his yelling screaming and pulling the fire alarm where we exited the extremely cool church to the scorching outside to wait for the alarm to stop. So the fire trucks came and with a smile on his face
garen was able to make a special day even better for kalen. We then finished the lovely meeting and left to get Kalen's ears pierced(thankyou abuelita/abuelito sarabia)
Miss all and hope to see soon.

I just wanted to say thank you thank you and TH-ANK YOU(for bevan who says I say it wrong)
everyone was sooo thoughtful and made me feel soo loved and I even wore a dress for alex ( he says I never wear them) so I had to get it on pictures and high heals (i always wear these sandals flat so I don't trip) I am a not cordinated. But I miss and love you all. It was a wonderful Birthday I am now 53 dont I look good for 53 oh ya im 35 well there is alway surgery.

just some pictures during kalen's family b-day wow 8 on the 27th I am getting old. sorry only could get 5 in the picture the others crashed it was around eleven.

Happy 8th B-Day to the such a sweet affectionate baby girl. She is such a touchy girl with a lot of emotion. Kalen I am soooo happy Heavenly Father gave me you. You have helped me to be more affectionate and I know you will teach me one day to be a little more girly. For those of you who don't know Kalen she can beat any boy in a race with high heals. She raced her older brother by 5 years and he had to bang into her to beat her and she still tied him and that was her 4th race in a row. She is the type of sweet spirited girl that can make you feel a whole lot better with a simple tender loving look and hug. She's definitely a daddy's girl! The boys better be careful because daddy owns a SHOTGUN and a variety of other weapons.(that part was from her dad)

just a little kitchen hockey

we had some girl time the girls try to put make up on me and did my hair and then put make up on themselves which only lasted about two minutes where they then wiped it all off. I guess a bit too like me. Alex wrote me the most amazing letter out of the blue I wanted to cry he has never been like that I realized he is an unbelievable writer I don't think he ever knew he was. But I adore, admire and i am utterly in love with my husband and he is dang cute too.

how do i look eighty and my husband looks 18 still ok maybe 21 well at least he is blind to my oldest. well I read the version of edwards story of twilight and oh my gosh I feel like a teenager alex said he would be my edward well I twilight series is the only romance novels I have read but it sure beats the lonely history Ive been into lately and health books for my diseaseAUGH!!!!!!!!!!!! I have slept I think 3 times in two months why am I not dead yet but it sure is taking a toll on my face. just think second coming I will look young again and my breast will rebound from off the floor.. thankyou for all the bouncing nursing babies.

some time in the sun at our splash pad. Sorry I've been so behind in blogging.
Well I came home with some form of poison oak or ivy. It spread across my body and went systemic which means went through my blood. Well I went to a dermatologist and a md who both didn't figure it out until it spread through my body I went to my natural store walked in and they said wow you got poison ivy/oak for 30 bucks I was able to stop the spread of uncontrolable itching I spent over 300 dollars at doctors for them to say I dont know looks like an allergic reaction and then gave me cream that I was allergic to and made it feel like an acid burn. Well two months later I am still trying to clean my blood from this poison I have to do it slowly because of nursing so I have only done two one day cleanses. Also to just let you all know Riley who I am so proud of is finishing his first 9 day cleanse which is really two days of cleansing 5 days of food and 2 more days of cleansing. Well he already lost ten pounds and looking great. We got back from our trip and he ate like there was no tomorrow especially and alex's moms house who kept downing him with every known junk you could eat well he came back with a tire and felt like crap so I told him if he changed his eating I would let him cleanse but he was not going to do the alex thing where he cleanses before a trip drops weight just to eat like a cow. Now for all of you who think I don't eat no one in the house eats more than me my food is just good for you but you should see the plates of food I eat. ok I will send the recital video soon when it gets forward to me the kids were awesome.

Happy Birthday to the sweetest baby ever for sleeping through the night. She also caused me the worst pain ever but we will not go into that. I still can't believe one year ago daddy delivered her in our bathtub without any midwifes around just the boys hiding behind the couch afraid for my life and braeley comforting me while I died. She always knows when I need someone. Actually Alex I don't think realized I was going to die he was making a fort out of his work papers all over the floor 5 minutes before. love you all we leave in two weeks for our trip Riley made Kylar some home made doughnuts because I never celebrate baby birthdays because they dont care just the older kids do.

a little baby she wont show off for me.

Garen has not been talking and just gibberish I found out about www.nacd.org which specializes in brain development with all kids and adults. Garen reacted to the mercury in the shots and would be considered autistic if I were to label him but now after just listening the the tapes and applying part of what they teach in the beginning tapes he is doing this yes reading and hes three. I am planning on taking him in for the full scan where they tailor a program just for him. We want all are kids in. Check them out and make sure to tell them emily referred you I am hoping they will give a discount if people refer so more people can afford to put all there kids in not just one. But oh my gosh you have to check out there website and listen to the video section. ok love you emily ps kylar is doing it also. (the reading part)

IVE GOT THE PERFECT MAN!!!!

I know when you're apart you realize what you have. But Id just like to say he has always been perfect for me. From the first moment I saw him it was like FIRE!! And I know we have had alot of good and bad fires in our marriage. I would not take any of them back. My husband has been such a support for me. He has never discouraged me from any of my crazy ideas. He was my biggest fan when I met him, he was the only guy who didn't try to compete with me. I love that he would rather hang out with me then a bunch of guys. He loves having kids and who knows how many we will have. He is sooo humble and doesnt do the whole ego thing alot of men have. In fact that is usually is problem he is too nice but I love that about him. He wants to take care of me and make me happy and that is truly what makes him happy. I always say hes my biggest child but that is what makes him sooo good and so great at what he does, everyone trusts him. He is my hero for letting me stay home always and support 7 kids and never making me feel I should work. He thinks my job is 100 times harder than his and he will cook me what ever I want. Ps. I miss that he is a wonderful cook He is a very passionate man and I am grateful he helped me become more affectionate. He also makes the cutest kids . He says I make them the hairiest but I love a huge head of dark hair on a baby. I miss our weekly dates and is beautiful hands. I love to watch him with our children and they are his biggest fans. I love that he tries to teach me how to dance and although I step on his toes he still holds me close. (HE CAN DANCE)
He is good to say he is sorry and forgives all my moods, power kicks, dumping of the crud in the house, pregnancy stuff. He cleans and give massages ok well I miss you alex and Im sorry that I live in my pjs(athletic wear)come home and I will change into something more comfortable, love emily